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An apology of sorts.. and other stuff that happened yesterday…

May 1, 2014

Firstly the apology, of sorts.


During my post about my brothers passing without me upholding my word to him.. i wrote this into the post:

In a way I view the redpill to the blue masses as atheism to theism.”

This may have pushed some buttons, as John Doe was quick to point out:

Yeah, I have a problem with you comparing Christians to blue pillers while claiming atheists are red pillers.”

You can read his full comment here. What i wrote wasn’t meant to be an attack on Christians, but simply how i see things from my perspective as an Atheist. He has his own view which he qualified in his comment as well. Nevertheless, my point still stands. Had John Doe been born in Saudi Arabia to Muslim parents.. his faith in God would be nil, and he would be here extolling the virtues of Allah instead. My point was that only by sheer luck of who you are born to and where dictates your odds of believing in ‘faith’.  He continues:

Red pill is about truth, observing truth, not falling for a line of crap. Seeing how intricate life is, how mathematical the universe is, how it is run by a set of laws that are irreversible, makes me think how could any person be so blind as to think this all came about by chance, that life somehow evolved from non-life. How could anybody be so stupid, so blind? How could anybody be so stupid about women, too? I once was blind, but now I see. About women, and about Christ.

The red pill is indeed about observing truth, which is why Heartiste is always extolling the virtues of❤ SCIENCE❤ as he beats feminists over the head with OBSERVABLE, REPRODUCIBLE and VERIFIABLE studies and results in the physical realm of nature, biology and psychology. Everything he writes works right up until he talks about Christ, and as such implied, God. As an Atheist the burden is not on me to prove or disprove the existence of God or the powers of Christ entity any more so than i would be required to do the same for the Easter Bunny or the Tooth Fairy. I cannot say that God doesn’t exist. Tho i can say there is no evidence great enough to show that i should surrender myself to the edicts of any particular religious God either. I’m a Dawkins atheist.. which is really a 9.5 out of 10 agnostic. I can’t claim to know God doesn’t exist.. but the evidence points that he doesn’t.

Here’s a simple test. I swear at God at least once a day. I call him my choice vulgarity of the day which means i’m using both a curse word AND the Lord’s name in vain. 2 strikes just to make sure for full effect. To this day i have not been hit by lightning, burst into flame, seen my family struck down by a flash flood or simply drop dead of simultaneous heart attacks. I am in fairly good standing health and moderately well off. At no point in the last few years that i’ve been doing this has there been a wrath or ruin or plague visited upon my city or my home. No floods. No pestilence. No famine. No mass die off of first born sons anywhere in my vicinity.

Well it appears i cannot reproduce the effects that led to this, this or this.. so the scientific method may not apply as it seems God is touchy about when he decides to summon suffering upon the human race but for the actions of a minor few.

The burden lies on you to show he exists, that your religion is the correct religion (out of all, including the 5,000+ versions of Christianity alone – I’M LOOKING AT YOU WESTBORO BAPTIST, and Mormons too!) and that you have evidence that would survive a court of law to prove his existence. Video evidence of him descending from the heavens and speaking to thousands at Madison Square Gardens is a good start. A 2,000+ year old ‘he said she said’ just doesn’t cut it for me.

Does God listen to prayers? Does he answer them? Read the rest of this entry ?


A Regret I Can Never Atone For

April 11, 2014


It is here in that moment that my Atheism is finally put to the test. Put on trial. I’m staring at the light, directly above the ambulance. Here and now, if there ever was a moment to have a spiritual revelation or reevaluation of religion, this was the time. I was ready to cast my nonbelief aside. I was desperate for it. I wanted to see a hint, a sign, a glimmer.. a glimpse – anything. I really wanted to be wrong in that moment. I was ready to grab onto anything, but i needed to see it. In this, my darkest hour.. i was looking for a miracle and proof that this wasn’t the end. I was looking for hope to atone.

A few hours earlier, April 10, 2008

I look up the staircase and see my bother sitting beside his computer and yell up to him “I’ll be back before 9.. we’ll get in a couple rounds of Hold’m when i get back. You know how much i love taking your funny money!”

Hrah hrah hrah, he snarked. My brother was great at Texas Holdem. I sucked. He knew it and i knew it. I was full of false bravado and not much else. He had been looking forward to this since i had been kept busy during the week working overtime for the struggling company i was working for. The 2008 economic collapse had not yet kicked in.. but i was already a victim of it’s red flags. And friends rarely dropped by to see him, tho i think it was at his request. He didn’t want people to see him as a cancer patient, he wanted people to see him when he was cured and all big bad and sexy.

With my pledge set, i took my fiance’s hand and we left for the dinner party she had booked us for.

As far as dinner parties go, this one wasn’t bad. I knew the hosts as friends, not simply acquaintances of my fiance. That being said, i’m not a fan of dinner parties at all. Call it a vestige of my introversion. I can suffer them with a smile, but i suffer nonetheless. I dull the pain with booze. Suffice it to say, i really didn’t want to be here tonight, i really wanted to be playing poker with my brother. But i had already promised my fiance that we would go do this, even tho it was brought up last minute. You know.. me being a nice guy and all, wanted to make sure i carried a good record of ‘Happy wife, happy life” into the marriage before it started.

We arrived at the destination. I finish parking my car in the school parking lot across the street from my friends place. Just before i get out of the car, my fiance brings up my brother. Specifically the very likely chance or possibility that he might end up either to sick to attend, or even die before the wedding. I simply look down at my feet and acknowledge that reality, tho it’s not something i wanted to dwell. He’d make it.

We enter the place, shoot the shit, chat it up while our host grabbed dinner. We ate. The women talked and me and my friend ended up looking over his computer. He always managed to get virus’s or issues on his laptop and me being the resident geek squad meant every dinner invite always carried the ulterior motive of tech support. A quick download of Malware Bytes later, he was on his way to recovery.

Evening was upon us and i gazed at my watch. “HOLY SHIT” i said in my head.. the time was 8:30. The highway wouldn’t be busy at this time but it was still a good 20 minutes from my mothers. My fiance was actively talking about something or other with my friends wife.

“10 minutes” i said in my head. I sat on the couch and looked at my watch again. “10 minutes and you’ll be off”.

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Revenge Porn is Wrong – ABR is Not!

February 2, 2014

Just a quick post.  (quick by my standards anyways..)


I’m going to break ranks with a lot of folks in the sphere but whatever.. it’s how i roll.

First read this.

Victims Of ‘Revenge Porn’ Open Up On Reddit About How It Impacted Their Lives

I know a lot of people within our little community are against criminalization of it.. i am not one of them.

I happen to agree with it.

You see, I am a libertarian first and foremost. I value privacy and trust.

I happen to agree with the punishment aspect… consensual intimate affairs should not become dirty laundry to use as a weapon.
Being filmed while having sex that is not meant for public consumption, only private viewing between the two participants means there is an unwritten rule. It is merely for the two of you to enjoy and share with each other. It takes a hell of a lot of trust and enhances intimacy by leaps and bounds! It’s a trust that should not be violated. EVER.
You see, I enjoy creating porn with the women of my life. I’ve a small but fun collection of previous ex’s. I do not share them with anyone, even my newest partner. And I fully  intend to make home porn with her too, i didn’t buy a $1,000 camera just to take pictures of birds hehe. It’s a 24 megapixel, 1080p fully configurable, soft focus, low aperture, high depth of field glory machine! This is something i enjoy doing, and it takes an incredible amount of trust on my partners part to do that and i don’t want some fucking immature yahoo’s fucking up what is a very good thing for me. I like creating great sexual memories..
..and if it takes legal punishment to safeguard the fun of making home porn with your significant other, then so be it.
Some obvious disclaimers:
  • only subject yourself to this activity within the confines of a trusting monogamous relationship between mature people
  • DO NOT start sexting and sending xxx videos to the guy you hooked up with just days ago
  • DO NOT start making porn with stupid horny teens who act on emotion rather than rationality
  • etc..

There is only ONE time i will accept the idea of revenge porn, and it goes hand in hand with the acronym ABR, What is ABR?

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Merry Christmas

December 25, 2013

Had a post about Atheism i was going to punch out, but since it’s Christmas, i thought i’d leave it for another day.

Today it was snowing this morning. Just as Christmas should. Although each year without my brother at the table gets a little more sombre and the joy of the holiday grows lesser still, i still reflect and appreciate the family i still have and try to enjoy the time i still have with them before life starts taking more away from me.

So with the spirit of the season in mind..

1. Stay safe all who are/were affected by the ice storm. I’m lucky i got to weather it at my parents place who only lost power for a few hours. There are many still out there who are still without power.

2a. With the exception of one woman, all the workers I have seen from the city of Toronto, Toronto hydro, Hydro 1 and clean up crews have been men. It is not me out there, but it is MEN out there, restoring power and civilization. The end of men? I think not you capricious cow Hanah Rosin. Every woman in this city should bear witness to who suffers the elements to keep all our collective ass’s comfortable. I never take the work of my fellow man for granted every time i flick a light switch.

2b. A group of 42 hydro workers from Manitoba gave up their Christmas with their families to come help restore power in Ontario. Respect. It’s earned, not given. My respect, they have it.

3. I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas. No seasons greetings bullshit. This season belongs to Christians and their belief in Christ’s birth. I would not wish seasons greetings to Jews on Hanukkah or seasons greetings to Muslims on Ramadan. I don’t have to believe, but I don’t have to usurp either. Coming from Polish background, Roman Catholicism is ingrained in the culture. I broke bread with my parents. I did not spontaneously combust.

I’m an Atheist, i do not believe in God or Jesus. And like i said, i got a follow up post coming soon to detail much of what i have to deal with, but not today.

Today is your day. Enjoy it. Be safe.


Attaining Respect in a Man’s World

December 9, 2013

Really quick post.

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Today’s Google Doodle is of the esteemed Grace Hopper.

My ego is not so fragile that i cannot point out when a woman does great things in the field of men and outperforms me. She had a gift and utilized it to it’s fullest potential. I cannot take offense at it any more than i could take offense at Mario Lemieux being able to score more goals than me in the NHL if in some alternate reality i could have made the NHL.

She earned the respect and admiration of her peers not by being a loud mouthed pushy bossy bitch, but by actually being adept in her field and performing at the same level or greater than her male colleagues.

I tried computer programming. It bored the be-jesus out of me. By all rights, Grace surpassed me and many other men by leaps and bounds in terms of knowledge and determination to apply it. She earns not only my respect, but admiration for doing things i cannot, and for working as hard as she did to make it into the Navy.

Just because one can do it, does not mean all are capable of the same.

What i take away from this story is that when women come along that truly want to play in a man’s world, and do so because they absolutely want to (not told to), because they have the skill and ability (not the handicap/affirmative action), and because they want to serve their fellow man/humanity (instead of their own short sighted, short term interest of showing up men), then those women will get the respect and accolades deserving of as any man would.

Grace was a rarity. I honor her achievement and females like her because they worked hard and had unique gifts they shared for the betterment of society like most men typically do. Feminists like to pretend that men do not give credit to women, and this is bullshit. We do give credit and praise when a woman competes on a man’s level and achieves based on merit. Work like a man, achieve like a man, earn respect like a man, you will be appreciated like a man.

No favoritism. No exemptions. No lowering of standards. No affirmative action. No quotas. No female privilege.

It’s just that it’s not very common that gifted women like Grace come around, and it’s disingenuous to pretend that every woman wants to/can be like her.

She was an outlier ( are you paying attention Sophia?😛 ) and harbored a gift in math. Most woman are not/do not. The statistics bear this out time and again. As the lovely Caroline argued in her post and her comment section HERE, women simply do not flock to these fields because more often than not, it simply DOES. NOT. APPEAL. TO. THEM.


Because they simply aren’t wired that way.

Women pushed into STEM fields abandon them quickly, not because of patriarchy.. but because it simply goes against their evolved nature. This isn’t a conspiracy, it’s reality. The delightful oddballs are the ones that thrive within a “man’s world”. We shouldn’t feel compelled to drive all women into these fields to ‘equalize’ the numbers. It would be folly to try. Only those that naturally want to should attempt it.

Grace, I commend you and your accomplishments and i recognize you for the outlier that you were.


Related: What happens to companies when you let womyn in based not on ability but on quota. What happens when you give spots to unqualified ‘equality outcome’ whores.


The Good that Women Can Do

November 5, 2013

My last few posts have been about goody goody girl and relationship stuff. I’m about to go back into the darker, harder hitting stuff about vapid woman, sluts, retarded feminists and entitled attitudes. So before i start launching the invective i thought i’d do a send off for all the great things that women can be and are capable of.

This is mainly a Thank You page to all the women who affect my life in a positive way whether they know it or not.


To the 2 paramedic EMT’s, both women, who tended to me while i was scaring the hell out of my workout partner with my heart rate dropping to danger territory syncope episode. Very professional, and pleasant. I immensely enjoyed having some mildly flirtatious moments with the one who took my blood sugar reading. Cute latina type. Even tho she had seen me crash from a BP of 75 down to 30 in a manner of a few seconds during my episode, i played the whole incident off as nothing more than a mild annoyance to me without a hint of danger. Like the black knight saying losing all 4 appendages was a mere flesh wound.

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Just a quick update..

October 30, 2013

Hello folks. Just a quick one. Got some big posts in the works so i thought i’d give you a small to tide you over.

  1. Got my results back from my cardiologist. The heart is solid. No defects at all. Chalk this one up to exercise over exertion and Vasovagal syncope. I have had a history of passing out due to seeing blood/trauma ever since a child. I’ve gotten better as i’ve aged but it’s always been there. I was actually hoping it really was heart related so that i could deal with a physical cause. Looks like hypnosis is my last option. In case you’re wondering, this is what it is. It’s probably in no small part the reason why i was brought up beta. Being the baby of the family, born premie, and having this condition.. probably led to my mom sheltering me, over protecting me, and kept me from taking the risks normal male children enjoy taking (which can lead to broken bones and copious amounts of blood). I’d have been a police officer or paramedic if my early childhood heroes could be realized.
  2. I’m very interested in an idea brought up on JustFourGuys post  Just Four Opinions – Daily Beast. Specifically making a documentary about the “manosphere.. from which this day forward i will simply call ‘The Sphere’. [Like the earth where different peoples migrate and create different cultures and ideas, so too is the sphere not one unified voice but a collection of different opinions, ideas, dogmas, etc.. where discussion is encouraged, assailed and held to peer scrutiny]. We are all here because we understand the outside world has peddled us ‘pretty lies’. We all knew as we looked out that window that what we saw was somehow not real. We knew a truth that had no name. The same realization that feminists originally claimed, a condition that had no name – bored housewives stifled at home.. we too have a condition – our lives were not our own. We all ended up here seeking truth and answers the ‘real’ world would not give us. And in light of the hit piece ABC’s 20/20 tried to pull, i want to see a real documentary with sane and sound individuals talking about/explaining/detailing exactly what the sphere is, why it exists, who participates in it (men/women), and what it preaches (lifestyle/game/mens rights/discussion/facts/sound statistics/etc..). Yes there are angry voices, but we have lots of men who find the sphere after the worst day of their life, so it’s understandable. But no one extremist voice speaks for us all.. unlike feminism, where every extremist follows the same core aspects of feminism. GirlWritesWhat took that on with the Not all feminists are like that trope. So, i have the camera, i have the editing software. I’m going to try and put together a quick little monologue together and run it by the gang at JFG and see where we can take this. If things go well, i’d open it up to other sphere bloggers to submit video to me to add. Guess if things really went well and it was coordinated well enough, fly out to record folks in their own environments. Dare to dream.
  3. Just thought i’d share this video i found on Youtube today. Probably one of the best point by point refutations of Feminism i’ve seen in a long while!

And oh yeah.. GO LEAFS GO!