Worth – Put into Proper ContextJanuary 12, 2014
Happy New Years.
I was in a line up at Walmart today, and my eyes did what they naturally do without any thought or hesitation.
I was checking out women. Cute. Bangworthy. Long legs. Hot. Nice smile. Doe eyes. Lashes. Peacock fashion. The works.
And.. dun dun dun… i was comparing them against each other. Which was hotter than, more doable, better looking etc..
All being done in milliseconds of thought with just hovering glances.
It’s what i do. It’s what the male brain does. I don’t question it, i revel in it. I feel no shame, i was born to do this. It just took me a long time to accept it as who i am rather than twist and contort myself into believing feminist bullshit of constructs and worth.
As i caught myself checking out a really gorgeous woman standing next to a not so well-off member of her sisterhood – a voice in my head from an age past jumped into my head. The sound of a feminist woman telling me
“Oh, so we’re only as valuable to you as we are attractive. Nothing else about us is redeemable or contains value. Our worth is entirely dependent on how hot we look to *YOU* men!”
Or some shit to that effect.
I realized right there in that line, was the voice of feminist thought that was once spoken by me, long before i crossed the Rubicon into the world of redpill.
When i was a beta chump.
Actually, if i read Vox’s list of socio-sexual hierarchy again, i truly believe i was a Gamma, not a Beta. I was much worse and lower of a loser than a beta. I wasn’t attractive and i had no concept of attraction.
Gamma: The introspective, the unusual, the unattractive, and all too often the bitter. Gammas are often intelligent, usually unsuccessful with women, and not uncommonly all but invisible to them, the gamma alternates between placing women on pedestals and hating the entire sex. This mostly depends upon whether an attractive woman happened to notice his existence or not that day. Too introspective for their own good, gammas are the men who obsess over individual women for extended periods of time and supply the ranks of stalkers, psycho-jealous ex-boyfriends, and the authors of excruciatingly romantic rhyming doggerel. In the unlikely event they are at the party, they are probably in the corner muttering darkly about the behavior of everyone else there… sometimes to themselves. Gammas tend to have have a worship/hate relationship with women, the current direction of which is directly tied to their present situation. However, they are sexual rejects, not social rejects.
Lifetime voluntary sexual partners = .5x average
Sounds about right. I was intelligent. I had all the ‘good’ qualities that i was told were what women sought. Yet it all amounted to naught, and that lack of attraction fed into the love/hate thing as i couldn’t reconcile why for all my worth and value i was being left behind. All of it containing zero value because all these qualities were packaged in something totally undesired.
My ability to work hard, be dependable, share feelings, be supportive, nurturing, caring, trusting, non judging, the dad – not the cad… truly the man in touch with his inner femininity and following feminist advice on how to love and respect women and be the perfect guy on paper for a woman should have brought me plenty of options on the market.
“You are such an awesome guy Mike! You will make some girl very lucky one day!”
Just not with you…
Always great enough to be a friend, but not worth a fuck. Always the rock to lean on in times of trouble. But not worth the intimate investment. Beta Bux.. Alpha fucks.
So i laugh now when i hear women speak about WORTH, and how they are annoyed that men place so much emphasis on looks and looking your best – as if that is the defining measure of someone’s worth.
We all know it isn’t. But as always.. context is key.
On paper i was worth more than any of the douchebags that went out with the women i loved during my incel years. Was i being judged? I would use the same language feminists used. Is my ability to make a girl laugh the only factor my worth should be judged against? Was my (lack of) cockiness or confidence the only measure by which my worth as a human being be allowed? I was awkward, i wasn’t physically fit, i wasn’t confident.. BUT i had SOOO many OTHER qualities! Yet it was easy for all women to overlook my worth and follow – oh hows that saying go? – “the heart wants what the heart wants”.
Yea, and so does the dick!
Worth has nothing to do with attraction or desire. You either create the sparks, or you don’t.
When a feminist gets pissed off because you speak of what attracts you, and enumerate them and compare them against the lesser ones.. they get very angry.. because they don’t want their ability to attract a mate to be based on desire. They want it to be based on a checklist of ‘their worth’ and all the qualities they have to offer like being empowered, tough, independent, feisty, full of moxie, intelligent, etc. They want exactly what i wanted before i took my pill. They want you to value them for x,y,z.. not for how they make you feel as a person of the opposite sex who knows what you are attracted to and desire.
Any feminist who uses the ‘worth’ argument is a mirror of the NiceGuys of OKCupid argument. They become what they despise. They complain about NiceGuys not being ‘nice’ because the nice guys want to be rewarded on x,y,z and are always passed up for those who avoid doing x,y,z.. you know.. the attractive guys, fit, funny, rugged, confident and masculine.
Because attraction and desire can’t be negotiated.
And yet, here these same women are complaining that guys are repugnant because they find indicators of youth, fertility, beauty and health sexually attractive, and not so much on x,y,z traits.
Funny that huh.
Now the main part of my post/rant is done, you can feel free to quit, turn your browser off, or go to another sphere site. I’m just going to tell you a fun little story of a conversation me and my girlfriend had at a bar a couple weeks ago – been in my drafts.. and it fits nicely into this post. I call it:
To Talk of Fatties Over a Pint
So my girlfriend and i walk into a pub, we grab a table and prepare to do our monthly burger cheat routine. While we wait for the food and are starting on our drinks, she started doing the cute little shit tests that she does and asks if i would leave her if she gained 50 lbs. I cocked my head a bit, put on my best shit eating grin and wryly said “In a heartbeat luv, in a heartbeat”. She feigned indignation but was smiling through the whole time.
We began talking about females.. and what attracts men (beauty, youth, health, fertility).
It didn’t take too long, my girl eventually relented and agreed with me. In fact, she already did agree with me and she knew it out of hand.. she just wanted to see how i’d respond. Deep down she knows, she doesn’t have to like the reality of it, just not to reject it. Knowledge is power.
Our discussion then turned to pedo-hysteria, and she actually was agreeing with the fact that it’s not wrong for men to be attracted to extremely young women, and that biology should be factored in when dealing with those issues in the justice system.
i actually had to be the one to argue from the position that while from a bio standpoint and evolutionary standpoint, i understand the reasoning for male desire of youth.. that it’s still not acceptable to break age of consent laws for a myriad of reasons:
- We don’t live in an era where we have to force kids to become adults early in development for our own survival (popping out kids at 13-15 because we died near 30)
- We don’t have the pressures we once did for basic needs or necessities like tilling land or doing tons of labor at an early age which required children to become adults during their youth
- We live in a society that affords children the ability to enjoy childhood instead of working to overcome harsh life and reality
And that means we don’t impose sexuality upon them that they aren’t capable of being responsible with because they didn’t grow up learning to respect responsibility at an early age. Back then, responsibility came with hardship.. and there was much guidance under ‘patriarchy’ to make both boy and girls understand the responsibilities that came with sex/relationship/child rearing.
It doesn’t exist today. that’s why we have so many irresponsible girls having babies too soon and too many thugs creating baby mama’s left right and center. They’re playing adults way before they’re ready to be because they were not born of the trials of hardship or the bearers of responsibility.
So how can one adopt a position of taking away a child’s childhood from them by introducing them to the adult world of sex?
There are exceptions to the rule obviously, some women develop much faster and mature to understand their sexual nature much quicker than most. BUT THEY ARE EXCEPTIONS. Girls become very aware of the power of their sexuality at an early age, but they don’t understand the why. The age of majority is a rule to keep the majority of immature children from being abused and corrupted by those who are already adults and capable of using their authority to gain advantage. Just because you can find a few well developed under age female ‘sexual predators’, does not mean you can make the case most teens are ready for it, especially with someone twice their age.
At this point she was still saying she understood the pedo perspective. So to put the issue to rest, i started talking very loudly within the bar, to the point where other patrons were looking over at our table. I didn’t care.. i went into full bombastic mode, reveling in my own wisdom and felt the confidence of my position take over. (My girlfriend was feigning embarrassment and meekly telling me to not be so loud, but the smile and giggles escaping her face told me she was enjoying my ape like behavior of banging my chest confidently and triumphantly)
I bellowed out that the reason i abhor pedo behavior and cannot sanction or justify it (along with the fact i could never imagine my friends daughter being accosted by a horny 30 or 40 year old man) was that biology isn’t the end all be all of human action. We have brains that allow us to calculate variables and repercussions. We don’t merely run on instinct like lower primates. We have the capacity to ignore our instincts.
I looked at my girlfriend square in the eye and said:
You like chocolate right? You like ice cream right? Tastes good right? Well, biologically, you evolved to love the taste of sweet things in the wild to give you energy and fat stores for long periods without food. Doesn’t work well today in a society where food is plenty and the sedentary lifestyle will kill you. (And here is where my voice started to carry) Look at all the fat people around you in life. They’re obese not because of a gland or some shit, they’re obese because they love stuffing their shnoz full of cheap empty calories that send their tastebuds through the roof and give them a narcotic high. They COULD blame their biology and that it’s so hard to resist the allure of the sweet stuff because hey.. their tongues evolved that way. They’re only doing what their instincts command them to do – eat.”
The rest is a best recollection of the story:
And this is where your brain should take over your instincts. To tell you what year you are in. To tell you that just because your tongue loves the taste of Haagendaas, does not mean it’s a good idea to consume a 5 liter bucket of it every day. I feel no sympathy whatsoever to fat people in this day and age of nutritional information about the basic concept of calories in/calories out along with the bare minimum of some form of movement. Instinctively they crave terrible food. Their brains should override instinct with common sense.
So too do i not find sympathy for the pedo crowd. Just as the fat person salivates at the thought of sinking into a fresh Krispy Kreme donut after eating a bucket of KFC (which caused both me and my GF to pause for a second and go ‘mmmmmmm’) .. i understand that craving as much as my cock might reflexively twitch at the sight of a perfectly proportioned 17 year old girl with glowing perfect unblemished soft skin, grabbable hips and ultra tight and wet pussy. Both are evolved. Doesn’t mean both should be acted upon just to be excused by biology.
And both can be curtailed because the society we live in today is much different than the medievalism from which we came. And that’s all the reason we should need for not giving into the ‘but it’s my biology’ excuse. They evolved to serve a purpose that is no longer relevant. We have them, we are not slaves to them.
And if i see any elder men take a pass at my friends daughter between the ages of 14-17… let’s just say Orthodontics don’t come cheap.