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A Regret I Can Never Atone For

April 11, 2014

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It is here in that moment that my Atheism is finally put to the test. Put on trial. I’m staring at the light, directly above the ambulance. Here and now, if there ever was a moment to have a spiritual revelation or reevaluation of religion, this was the time. I was ready to cast my nonbelief aside. I was desperate for it. I wanted to see a hint, a sign, a glimmer.. a glimpse – anything. I really wanted to be wrong in that moment. I was ready to grab onto anything, but i needed to see it. In this, my darkest hour.. i was looking for a miracle and proof that this wasn’t the end. I was looking for hope to atone.

A few hours earlier, April 10, 2008

I look up the staircase and see my bother sitting beside his computer and yell up to him “I’ll be back before 9.. we’ll get in a couple rounds of Hold’m when i get back. You know how much i love taking your funny money!”

Hrah hrah hrah, he snarked. My brother was great at Texas Holdem. I sucked. He knew it and i knew it. I was full of false bravado and not much else. He had been looking forward to this since i had been kept busy during the week working overtime for the struggling company i was working for. The 2008 economic collapse had not yet kicked in.. but i was already a victim of it’s red flags. And friends rarely dropped by to see him, tho i think it was at his request. He didn’t want people to see him as a cancer patient, he wanted people to see him when he was cured and all big bad and sexy.

With my pledge set, i took my fiance’s hand and we left for the dinner party she had booked us for.

As far as dinner parties go, this one wasn’t bad. I knew the hosts as friends, not simply acquaintances of my fiance. That being said, i’m not a fan of dinner parties at all. Call it a vestige of my introversion. I can suffer them with a smile, but i suffer nonetheless. I dull the pain with booze. Suffice it to say, i really didn’t want to be here tonight, i really wanted to be playing poker with my brother. But i had already promised my fiance that we would go do this, even tho it was brought up last minute. You know.. me being a nice guy and all, wanted to make sure i carried a good record of ‘Happy wife, happy life” into the marriage before it started.

We arrived at the destination. I finish parking my car in the school parking lot across the street from my friends place. Just before i get out of the car, my fiance brings up my brother. Specifically the very likely chance or possibility that he might end up either to sick to attend, or even die before the wedding. I simply look down at my feet and acknowledge that reality, tho it’s not something i wanted to dwell. He’d make it.

We enter the place, shoot the shit, chat it up while our host grabbed dinner. We ate. The women talked and me and my friend ended up looking over his computer. He always managed to get virus’s or issues on his laptop and me being the resident geek squad meant every dinner invite always carried the ulterior motive of tech support. A quick download of Malware Bytes later, he was on his way to recovery.

Evening was upon us and i gazed at my watch. “HOLY SHIT” i said in my head.. the time was 8:30. The highway wouldn’t be busy at this time but it was still a good 20 minutes from my mothers. My fiance was actively talking about something or other with my friends wife.

“10 minutes” i said in my head. I sat on the couch and looked at my watch again. “10 minutes and you’ll be off”.

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Revenge Porn is Wrong – ABR is Not!

February 2, 2014

Just a quick post.  (quick by my standards anyways..)

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I’m going to break ranks with a lot of folks in the sphere but whatever.. it’s how i roll.

First read this.

Victims Of ‘Revenge Porn’ Open Up On Reddit About How It Impacted Their Lives

I know a lot of people within our little community are against criminalization of it.. i am not one of them.

I happen to agree with it.

You see, I am a libertarian first and foremost. I value privacy and trust.

I happen to agree with the punishment aspect… consensual intimate affairs should not become dirty laundry to use as a weapon.
Being filmed while having sex that is not meant for public consumption, only private viewing between the two participants means there is an unwritten rule. It is merely for the two of you to enjoy and share with each other. It takes a hell of a lot of trust and enhances intimacy by leaps and bounds! It’s a trust that should not be violated. EVER.
You see, I enjoy creating porn with the women of my life. I’ve a small but fun collection of previous ex’s. I do not share them with anyone, even my newest partner. And I fully  intend to make home porn with her too, i didn’t buy a $1,000 camera just to take pictures of birds hehe. It’s a 24 megapixel, 1080p fully configurable, soft focus, low aperture, high depth of field glory machine! This is something i enjoy doing, and it takes an incredible amount of trust on my partners part to do that and i don’t want some fucking immature yahoo’s fucking up what is a very good thing for me. I like creating great sexual memories..
..and if it takes legal punishment to safeguard the fun of making home porn with your significant other, then so be it.
Some obvious disclaimers:
  • only subject yourself to this activity within the confines of a trusting monogamous relationship between mature people
  • DO NOT start sexting and sending xxx videos to the guy you hooked up with just days ago
  • DO NOT start making porn with stupid horny teens who act on emotion rather than rationality
  • etc..

There is only ONE time i will accept the idea of revenge porn, and it goes hand in hand with the acronym ABR, What is ABR?

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Six Degrees of Separation

January 19, 2014

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It seems almost uncanny that on the day i get a Feminist named Paradoxy to leave me a comment on my post Reproductive Slavery i would have been listening to a conversation by my girlfriend a few hours earlier regarding OOOPSIE births.

From the article:

Three months ago, I started seeing a nice guy. He has potential. But I feared he’d go the way so many had: dating for a while, then moving on. This time I was determined to at least try to get something of what I want, so I did what I never thought I’d do. I lied when he asked if I was taking birth control.

As far as i’m concerned this is as bad as rape. I also understand it’s more common than feminists would have us believe.

I’ve already written about one of my friends being OOOPSIE’d HERE.. and last night my girlfriend told me about how one of her friends a long time ago confided in her that her friend stopped taking her pills while telling her partner she was on the pill – resulting in an ‘accident’. The woman has never fessed up to the hubby to this day.

That’s 2 stories i alone know of. Personally, 1 is 1 too many.. and i know of TWO!

I’m willing to bet there are others out there that have similar stories to tell, so for this post i’m asking something different of my commenters. I don’t want to see a round of ‘women are whores’ or ‘sideways’ comments. I want this post to spread far and wide in the hopes that lurkers de-lurk just to write about genuine stories they are 100% certain about that they either heard of, or heard from a 3rd party (like my gf) who is absolutely in the know about such an incident. No intimate details or names required, just the basics of who in relation to who told you, how the plan went down, did she go through with it and if she did, did her partner ever find out. Simple shit.

Use a pseudo-name, remain anonymous, sign up for a throw away webmail account – i don’t care. Just de-lurk if you have a similar story to share and jot it down. I wan’t to see how many comments this post unearths. Sign off with your city/state/prov if possible.

Thanks.

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Baby, You’re A Firework – CUM On, Let Your Colours Burst

January 16, 2014

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Originally i was going to title this “Let Hypergamy Work For You”, but not enough of my bullet points have anything to do with it, so i changed it.

I am going to disagree with Roosh here about whether making a woman orgasm is worth your time. While there are some groups of women for which it is pointless to try, my belief it’s a very small group of undesirable women that fit into it which will be addressed within the post.

I say make her pleasure your number one priority <unless your purpose is solely for instant gratification>. Personally, i love taking an active interest in taking the girl i’m with to new heights of pleasure. Seeing her delight and excite under my oral ministrations and methodical motions, witnessing her undulate by my design – enhances my own pleasure center. My biggest loads have always come from simply observing a woman revel in her sexual delight! Words cannot do justice how aroused i become seeing a woman’s sexual excitement of which i am it’s chief architect (that fall within my acceptable parameters for reasonable playful enthusiastic sex. Those who need to be choked, slapped, gagged, beaten and humiliated to enjoy it need not apply).

And the effort reaps rewards a plenty.

Here’s my list of reasons why.

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Merry Christmas

December 25, 2013

Had a post about Atheism i was going to punch out, but since it’s Christmas, i thought i’d leave it for another day.

Today it was snowing this morning. Just as Christmas should. Although each year without my brother at the table gets a little more sombre and the joy of the holiday grows lesser still, i still reflect and appreciate the family i still have and try to enjoy the time i still have with them before life starts taking more away from me.

So with the spirit of the season in mind..

1. Stay safe all who are/were affected by the ice storm. I’m lucky i got to weather it at my parents place who only lost power for a few hours. There are many still out there who are still without power.

2a. With the exception of one woman, all the workers I have seen from the city of Toronto, Toronto hydro, Hydro 1 and clean up crews have been men. It is not me out there, but it is MEN out there, restoring power and civilization. The end of men? I think not you capricious cow Hanah Rosin. Every woman in this city should bear witness to who suffers the elements to keep all our collective ass’s comfortable. I never take the work of my fellow man for granted every time i flick a light switch.

2b. A group of 42 hydro workers from Manitoba gave up their Christmas with their families to come help restore power in Ontario. Respect. It’s earned, not given. My respect, they have it.

http://www.cbc.ca/news/canada/manitoba/manitoba-hydro-workers-head-to-ice-ravaged-toronto-1.2475491

3. I want to wish everyone a Merry Christmas. No seasons greetings bullshit. This season belongs to Christians and their belief in Christ’s birth. I would not wish seasons greetings to Jews on Hanukkah or seasons greetings to Muslims on Ramadan. I don’t have to believe, but I don’t have to usurp either. Coming from Polish background, Roman Catholicism is ingrained in the culture. I broke bread with my parents. I did not spontaneously combust.

I’m an Atheist, i do not believe in God or Jesus. And like i said, i got a follow up post coming soon to detail much of what i have to deal with, but not today.

Today is your day. Enjoy it. Be safe.

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Attaining Respect in a Man’s World

December 9, 2013

Really quick post.

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Today’s Google Doodle is of the esteemed Grace Hopper.

My ego is not so fragile that i cannot point out when a woman does great things in the field of men and outperforms me. She had a gift and utilized it to it’s fullest potential. I cannot take offense at it any more than i could take offense at Mario Lemieux being able to score more goals than me in the NHL if in some alternate reality i could have made the NHL.

She earned the respect and admiration of her peers not by being a loud mouthed pushy bossy bitch, but by actually being adept in her field and performing at the same level or greater than her male colleagues.

I tried computer programming. It bored the be-jesus out of me. By all rights, Grace surpassed me and many other men by leaps and bounds in terms of knowledge and determination to apply it. She earns not only my respect, but admiration for doing things i cannot, and for working as hard as she did to make it into the Navy.

Just because one can do it, does not mean all are capable of the same.

What i take away from this story is that when women come along that truly want to play in a man’s world, and do so because they absolutely want to (not told to), because they have the skill and ability (not the handicap/affirmative action), and because they want to serve their fellow man/humanity (instead of their own short sighted, short term interest of showing up men), then those women will get the respect and accolades deserving of as any man would.

Grace was a rarity. I honor her achievement and females like her because they worked hard and had unique gifts they shared for the betterment of society like most men typically do. Feminists like to pretend that men do not give credit to women, and this is bullshit. We do give credit and praise when a woman competes on a man’s level and achieves based on merit. Work like a man, achieve like a man, earn respect like a man, you will be appreciated like a man.

No favoritism. No exemptions. No lowering of standards. No affirmative action. No quotas. No female privilege.

It’s just that it’s not very common that gifted women like Grace come around, and it’s disingenuous to pretend that every woman wants to/can be like her.

She was an outlier ( are you paying attention Sophia? :Pand harbored a gift in math. Most woman are not/do not. The statistics bear this out time and again. As the lovely Caroline argued in her post and her comment section HERE, women simply do not flock to these fields because more often than not, it simply DOES. NOT. APPEAL. TO. THEM.

Why?

Because they simply aren’t wired that way.

Women pushed into STEM fields abandon them quickly, not because of patriarchy.. but because it simply goes against their evolved nature. This isn’t a conspiracy, it’s reality. The delightful oddballs are the ones that thrive within a “man’s world”. We shouldn’t feel compelled to drive all women into these fields to ‘equalize’ the numbers. It would be folly to try. Only those that naturally want to should attempt it.

Grace, I commend you and your accomplishments and i recognize you for the outlier that you were.

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Related: What happens to companies when you let womyn in based not on ability but on quota. What happens when you give spots to unqualified ‘equality outcome’ whores.

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Products with ‘Made in Japan’ will become Collector’s Items!

December 1, 2013

Watch the video.. it’s both funny and painful.

Men have always worked to attain wealth and power in order to out compete against other males in order to be viewed upon favorably by women for the purposes of sexual access. Men get and education, work, prosper and become strong and independent to attract women for sex, create society and start families.

But what happens when women get education, prosper and become independent (taking on masculine traits) thus becoming the men of society. What do they do with their equal opportunity?

They eschew relationships or creating families early on, and have too much fun shopping for fucking shit.

And how do they view most actual men while at the height of their sexual and economic power?

With disgust, derision and apathy. They don’t have time to entertain the idea of relationships. They see no need. It’s all too bothersome and annoying and interferes with the day to day operation of their awesome fabulous lives of earning money to spend on trivial shit. It is here you see female disdain towards sex. Without external factors pressing their individual survival requiring them to hook up early to a man, they could care less about men’s need or desire for sex. This is like the OKCupid study on steroids. A true feminist utopia in every sense of the word. Free from being required to engage in a reciprocal trade of resources or having to have icky sex with Joe Average.

Of course, as Sunshine Mary found out, feminist utopia comes with a laundry list of emergency hotlines for the severely depressed and the emotionally crippled.

It creates women like the emotionally broken one that wished death upon the happy couples she sees on the street for the crime of being in a happy relationship.. one she can never experience.

BECAUSE SHE’S FUCKING BROKEN!

Men have always desired wealth and power for the purpose of successfully mating and propagating our species. It is especially telling in Japan. Japanese men in were once renowned as robotic humans who worked preposterous hours.. just so that the family he created would prosper and thrive. Now when women are given the same option of working hard like men to earn money and become ‘salary (wo)men’.. do they behave in the same manner as those men of generations past?

No, they couldn’t be bothered. It’s all about them, and they’ll let Japan die before they give up having their fun.

And what of the men who were left behind, pushed out of the job options by the influx of women, and completely lost to any mating prospects, or simply stopped caring about working brutal hours. What of them?

When females enter the male frame and dominate it, men become weak and forced into a female frame. Once they enter that frame, they cannot instill desire or attraction of any kind. (Look at any modern day male feminist who isn’t a conniving sociopath like Hugo) They become effeminate. They realize the long uphill struggle that is required to attain sex, and seeing the folly in trying, they remain in their female frame and enjoy the simpler pursuits of life. And the men have come to realize (and accept) that they know their women would rather die than have sex with them.. so there is no motivation on this earth that would make them want to slog 80 hours a week trying to be a career salary man. There is ZERO FUCKING REWARD.

In such a society where relationships are abandoned because of too much tinkering with natural gender roles, too much freedom wrought by high tech society, and the act of sex so removed from the confines of a loving intimate act.. instead turned into a commodity to be sold under every kind of fetish and niche to be served.. and you end up with Japan. A culture ready to die.

Yes, a majority of the Japanese men are now effeminate spineless beta herbs that have the sexual appeal of a toad stool but hey, if you’re gonna blame them for being that way, you gotta blame the root cause. Women demanding to step into the masculine frame and forcibly pushing men into the feminine frame. Something had to give.. and something broke.

Where men profess love to digital girls on their Nintendo. And women who pay for orbiters to listen to their prattle…

Who pay men exorbitant amount of money in excess of what high class escorts charge here in North America, and pay eagerly and willingly to ‘alpha’ male ‘hosts’ simply to hear them bitch about their shitty days working for a fucking paycheck. No sex. No love. Just listening to ‘their feelings’.

Take note beta-orbiters.. YOUR TIME IS VALUABLE AND WORTH MONEY! Are you in the friend-zone?

Next time the bitch wants your shoulder to cry on.. pull out one of these with a straight face…

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Oh wait..

fuck..

get with the times dude..

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Japan is dying because women.. in all their freedom, became selfish. They got all the rights and equality of men.. but whereas men always used it to further civilization and enhance and grow their societies, women are just happy to absorb everything, live in the moment selfishly and move on to the next area.

Like a virus.

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Goodbye Japan.. it’s ok.. i’ve already gotten used to seeing ‘Made in China’ and ‘Made in Taiwan’ on my products.

I won’t miss you when you’re gone.

Your move North America.. your move.

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CONFESSIONS OF A REFORMED INCEL – AFTERMATH Pt.1

November 15, 2013

Losing my Virginity was Lame.. Losing my Incel status was Epic!

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So laidnyc asked for us to write about it, i will. (late to the party as usual)

This is how i lost my virginity to my first girlfriend (who later became my exwife). She was 6 months older than me, and a sexually experienced woman with 3 boyfriends prior to me. She was intent on utilizing me to jump from her current boyfriend to her next boyfriend. I became the gateway boyfriend, the in-between, serial monogamy boyfriend, the pack mule and workhorse… (to help her move out, she wanted me to go on welfare and move into an apartment with her, my mom stopped me from making the stupidest decision of my life. Funny how my mom could tell me what to do for my best interest and no one bats an eyelash.. tell a girl what’s best for her and you’re an oppressive part of the patriarchy trying to stifle and shame female sexuality. My mom being a woman knew exactly what my gf was up to and put the kibosh on that fast LIKE A FUCKING PARENT SHOULD.. take that to the bank. OK, way off track) ..and to help her move out of the apartment she was being evicted from to a new place.

I was 17 when she was on the way out from her relationship to another guy. She knew i was interested, and was in need of a ton of help during the breakup, so what better way to get the utility of a stupid beta than to ‘rob the cradle’ so to speak. Just shy of my 18th birthday, she asked me to come up to her apartment, and we had a long talk on the couch and i finally fessed up my feelings for her. She asked me if i was asking her out. I said yes, and she seemed ecstatic. I left her apartment on a high i never felt before. I finally had my first bonafide girlfriend. The next day, she called me over and started telling me about all of her troubles and needs. Once she hit me with all of that, she told me to wait on the couch while she went into the bedroom. She was telling me she was getting my early birthday present ready. She came out in pigtails, a school girl kilt and thigh high leggings. She took complete control, sat in my lap and started lapdancing me like a pro. A few moments later i ended up inside her. I think i was so utterly surprised by the whole experience.. i spent my time reading a mental timer trying to keep from busting too fast.  Moist, tight envelopment of hot 18 year old pussy grinding up and down on my cock, tits in my face, the smell of her perfume and sex mingling in the air, just a hint of flesh between the tops of her leggings and the end of her kilt, all the magic and mystery happening underneath her skirt that i couldn’t see, but i could fully feel unlike anything my cock had felt before. I didn’t even make two minutes.

I remember a lot of cum came flowing back out of her i do recall.

But ya.. quite pathetic on the whole.

I much prefer the story of my losing my ‘born again’ viginity due to involuntary celibacy.

A few days ago i found an old thread on a RooshV forum about my Incel post, and a lot of commenters had the same reaction. That what i described was too fantastical to have been real. “Too good to be true!” That i fudged the story to make it sound wilder than it was. A direct quote from one poster stated “first is the guy’s jump from a decade plus of incelness and “omega”-ness to banging strippers on the reg. this defies belief. it is as extreme a jump as you can get.”

So i will recollect a little more in depth here in my second story:

CONFESSIONS OF A REFORMED INCEL – AFTERMATH

Her stage name was “Megan”. Read the rest of this entry ?

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The Good that Women Can Do

November 5, 2013

My last few posts have been about goody goody girl and relationship stuff. I’m about to go back into the darker, harder hitting stuff about vapid woman, sluts, retarded feminists and entitled attitudes. So before i start launching the invective i thought i’d do a send off for all the great things that women can be and are capable of.

This is mainly a Thank You page to all the women who affect my life in a positive way whether they know it or not.

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To the 2 paramedic EMT’s, both women, who tended to me while i was scaring the hell out of my workout partner with my heart rate dropping to danger territory syncope episode. Very professional, and pleasant. I immensely enjoyed having some mildly flirtatious moments with the one who took my blood sugar reading. Cute latina type. Even tho she had seen me crash from a BP of 75 down to 30 in a manner of a few seconds during my episode, i played the whole incident off as nothing more than a mild annoyance to me without a hint of danger. Like the black knight saying losing all 4 appendages was a mere flesh wound.

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Just a quick update..

October 30, 2013

Hello folks. Just a quick one. Got some big posts in the works so i thought i’d give you a small to tide you over.

  1. Got my results back from my cardiologist. The heart is solid. No defects at all. Chalk this one up to exercise over exertion and Vasovagal syncope. I have had a history of passing out due to seeing blood/trauma ever since a child. I’ve gotten better as i’ve aged but it’s always been there. I was actually hoping it really was heart related so that i could deal with a physical cause. Looks like hypnosis is my last option. In case you’re wondering, this is what it is. It’s probably in no small part the reason why i was brought up beta. Being the baby of the family, born premie, and having this condition.. probably led to my mom sheltering me, over protecting me, and kept me from taking the risks normal male children enjoy taking (which can lead to broken bones and copious amounts of blood). I’d have been a police officer or paramedic if my early childhood heroes could be realized.
  2. I’m very interested in an idea brought up on JustFourGuys post  Just Four Opinions – Daily Beast. Specifically making a documentary about the “manosphere.. from which this day forward i will simply call ‘The Sphere’. [Like the earth where different peoples migrate and create different cultures and ideas, so too is the sphere not one unified voice but a collection of different opinions, ideas, dogmas, etc.. where discussion is encouraged, assailed and held to peer scrutiny]. We are all here because we understand the outside world has peddled us ‘pretty lies’. We all knew as we looked out that window that what we saw was somehow not real. We knew a truth that had no name. The same realization that feminists originally claimed, a condition that had no name – bored housewives stifled at home.. we too have a condition – our lives were not our own. We all ended up here seeking truth and answers the ‘real’ world would not give us. And in light of the hit piece ABC’s 20/20 tried to pull, i want to see a real documentary with sane and sound individuals talking about/explaining/detailing exactly what the sphere is, why it exists, who participates in it (men/women), and what it preaches (lifestyle/game/mens rights/discussion/facts/sound statistics/etc..). Yes there are angry voices, but we have lots of men who find the sphere after the worst day of their life, so it’s understandable. But no one extremist voice speaks for us all.. unlike feminism, where every extremist follows the same core aspects of feminism. GirlWritesWhat took that on with the Not all feminists are like that trope. So, i have the camera, i have the editing software. I’m going to try and put together a quick little monologue together and run it by the gang at JFG and see where we can take this. If things go well, i’d open it up to other sphere bloggers to submit video to me to add. Guess if things really went well and it was coordinated well enough, fly out to record folks in their own environments. Dare to dream.
  3. Just thought i’d share this video i found on Youtube today. Probably one of the best point by point refutations of Feminism i’ve seen in a long while!

And oh yeah.. GO LEAFS GO!

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